I realized today that my idea/experiment of “oh, I’ll just take a few college classes and see what happens” has gone on for nearly 10 semesters and over 4 years and I’m not about to graduate. During that time I’ve learned a lot (more outside the classroom than in, but there have been a few choice exceptions that shined) about myself and the world, but I’ve never actually stopped and wondered (REALLY wondered) what the heck I was doing. Recently I did and I realized that 4+ years of school, coming off of 16 years of unschooling, and with no immediate (<6 months) end in sight has completely burned me out. (In a lot of ways I feel like I’ve lost that awesome person who was so interested in learning on my own terms…and that really scares me.) This realization came when I figured out that I’m having an unnaturally strong stressed reaction to doing a fairly simple and low-key research and presentation project in one of my two classes this semester. Maybe it’s time to take a little (or a lot of) time off and reevaluate. I don’t know.